I used to think I understood how my life worked out and how my thoughts worked. Now I feel as if I understand nothing. Constantly thinking about the same scenarios over and over again, weighing up the pros and cons of both situation and yet still I can’t make sense of anything.
I thought when you say ‘I love you’ to someone, that was it, that that would be the way it would be. I thought when you broke up with someone would be over, there would be no more feelings, just an end. Yet I was so very wrong.
My feelings are a mess right now. I’ve forgotten what it means to be in a relationship with someone and what it means to love someone. All I know is here I am, without anyone to call my own contemplating on what will happen in the future as an outcome of the choices I make.